There's a friend who happened to discover my blog and she told me to just move on and leave my past behind.
I told her, "
If it's that easy, then I could've done that 6 years ago".
She gave me this look and told me, "
What's so hard with that? Move on na, Kai. It's easy because if it's not, then you wouldn't have relationships after him. And I believe that time heals. It has been 6 years. Those years were enough for you to move on and forget your feelings for him."
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I've always wanted to move on. Sino ba naman ang ayaw mag move on? Who would want to dwell in this feelings I have for him?", I told her.
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But still, I don't understand.", she said.
I didn't argue anymore because I know she wouldn't understand anyway. No one understands everything that I am going through right now and for the past 6 years. No one even understands every millimeter of pain I am feeling. It's not as easy as it sounds, I tell you.
But I guess everything boils down to one thing. If we weren't friends after the break-up, then maybe I could've moved on with my life and leave the past behind. Mahirap kasi sabihin na mag move on na while he's still a part of your life and your daily routine.
How can you forget someone who is making you fall for him over and over again everyday?
Sige nga, you tell me.
